I’ve been finding that, lately, I feel like I’m living in a state of limbo. I have a life right now and I have responsibilities, but after I got the job offer for Japan, none of that seemed important anymore. August seems so far away, but if you really think about it, it’s no time at all. I have so much to do and prepare before leaving but I can’t find the motivation to do any of it.
Interac doesn’t provide the stuff for getting your COE until May, while JET is already requiring a few documents. I have some personal stuff to take care of also, but all I feel like doing is sitting around and complaining online. I feel like having definitive dates would help, but I only have *tentative* dates right now. Tentatively leaving my job on July 7 (though I may stay a bit longer since I’m leaving right before a huge release), tentatively going home July 19th (though I don’t even know which airport I’ll be flying out of)… Tentatively leaving for Japan on August 1 (c’mon Interac, just tell me already!) It’s a mess all around, but I know that come June or so, I’ll be frantically rushing around trying to do everything and prepare for my cross country roadtrip and overseas move.
My lists aren’t working! I guess what prompted all of these anxieties was doing some spring cleaning yesterday. My SO got rid of a bunch of stuff, but I’m still holding on to a lot of stuff. How am I going to get that all back home? I’m planning to sell some of it, but I’m not really sure how much exactly. I already purged my makeup collection (that was so painful) and I’m trying to use up the products that only have a little bit left. I’m going to pack up my winter coats soon and ship those back home. Then I’ll send another box with the winter coats I plan on sending up to Japan and have my mom send me those once I find out my placement. (Hopefully I’m not going to be too far South..)
Well I’m just rambling now, trying to take my mind off of work. I’ll go list some stuff on freecycle and eBay and try to alleviate some of this anxiety. Ugh.